Entrepreneur or Desperado

In every business, there are highs and lows...you get to experience every season sometime...in startups you seem to get them all in one week, sometimes in one day. We've made some pretty decent progress and open source has been a great bootstrap to getting us up and running. Helps to have an awesome technology dude as one of your co-founders. As for me, it feels like rehabilitation, you know you used to run but now you're learning to walk all over again...20 years and 20 million lines of code seem so far away right now. You start breaking all the rules that you used to set when running other people's teams, like don't do things that other people are better at, except isn't too many 'other' people. So you code, talk to partners, investors, buy hardware, brand your site plus a zillion other things. Emotionally, it's like a living in a lava lamp, going up, going down...differentiating between strategic and tactical is a blur...

So when weeks like these end, I sit back and listen to the Eagles, and their song Desperado in particular. To me it speaks of the entrepreneur who should come to his senses and maybe been out riding fences for too long. We're just one crazy breed of people. Doing the things that please us and maybe hurt us somehow and we only want the things we can't get.

It's 5pm, and up...the words are pretty appropriate...

"Desperado, oh, you ain't gettin' no younger
Your pain and your hunger, they're drivin' you home,
And freedom, oh freedom well, that's just some people talkin'
Your prison is walking through this world all alone"

Note to self: I fear regret more than I fear failure...I remain inspired!

Whilst every hitchhiker to the galaxy has his towel, I have my Tealeaf and whatever the question is, the answer is 42